18 things in 11 days :D

11 days to my birthday! I will not have a formal debut or celebration as much as I want to. Awwww. But it's okay. All Time Low was my birthday gift and that was more than enough for me. Although, I really wanted a formal debut in the past. Le sigh. If only I had time and money on a big ass celebration. But oh well. As I said, ATL was absolutely magical, okay?

I somehow imagined it in a beach, I don't even know why or how I;m going to get there. And I imagined me in a white dress all dolled up and pretty. Hihihi. I'm seriously just one of those people who love their birthdays so much. I like it when people greet me a happy birthday :> I start count downing to my birthday after my brother's birthday. Hihihi. Kahit na wala akong gawin sa birthday ko, the fact that it is my birthday makes me happy. :) And I don't even know why.

But for this birthday, I just want to spend it at home and lounge around the house. I JUST WANT A LOT OF FOOD, OKAY? I am serious. :)) If it's not in the house, I want a buffet. I just want to eat a lot on my birthday. And not be sick, please? Because I always get sick on my birthday >.> I want to stay at home with all 4 other member of my family and watch something we all like. I want unlimited supply of food! :)))) I just keep mentioning this food thing. HAHAHA.

Anywaaaay, since my 18th birthday is coming up, I iz going to post 18 gifts I would really really like to have and yes, some are definitely unattainable, but that is what birthday wishes are for. ♥

18 gifts

1. Sunflowers because I haven't seen flower shops that sell them and I've always wanted sunflowers ♥
2. A surprise! I don't know what kind of surprise but yeah. A surprise.
3. Something that effort was obviously poured on.
4. Books
5. A firework display just for me :))) loool.
6. Colored pens! And lots of them.
7. A concert ticket to the next show I want to attend :))
8. Gift cert from some clothing shop because people don't know how to dress me :)))\
9. Can I just please get money? :)))) loljk. But I don't really know!
10. A big-ass decent, pretty notebook. Seryoso, I want a notebook. One that's matibay and pretty! :))
11. A drum set! :)) loool. drumsticks would be ok. HAHAHA
12. Repair of my laptop. huhuhu. Keyboard and hinges and everything!
13. Triad necklace! 30STM thing :< It costs a lot tho coz it has to be shipped in
14. A day in the beach, okay? I know my birthday is soooo far away from the summer but I really really want the beach
15. EUROPEAN TOUR! :))) this one is highly impossible but whatever :))
16. Polka dotted shoes/skirt/bag. :))) I am seriously want something polka dotted.
17. Dresses~ OMG, seriously, I want a pretty dress. :))) Hahaha. I'm not exactly sure where I want to wear a dress but please, just give me dresses :))
18. A holiday :)))

But can I just have a lot of eating on my birthday? :))) I want to eat a lot talaga. I want to eat with my college friends, eat with my high school friends and eat with my family. Is that too much to ask? :)))) Now it's pretty obvious that I eat a lot and is going to grow fat when the time comes when my metabolism can't handle all the food I eat anymore :)))

Food on my birthday :)))) HAHAHAHA.

Pottermore LOVE

I finally got my Welcome E-mail for Pottermore. alsjflasjflasj MY HEART IS EXPLODING. this has been the most amazing suspension of classes ever because I spent the whole day on Pottermore. I opened an account in Gringgotts, I got my wand, I got sorted, I learned how to make potions aaaaand I cast some spells. Ugh. Too bad we can only finish Book 1. Chamber of Secrets is not open yet :(

Hi! My username is ChaserAsh115 and it kind of sucks but whatever, you know :)) My wand is Ash with Phoenix core, 12 inches and a quarter, hard. My core is the rarest and I have the same core as Harry Potter. My wood is the same as Ron. Hah! I almost thought I would be sorted into Gryffindor for that :))

Description of my wand:

Phoenix

This is the rarest core type. Phoenix feathers are capable of the greatest range of magic, though they may take longer than either unicorn or dragon cores to reveal this. They show the most initiative, sometimes acting of their own accord, a quality that many witches and wizards dislike.

Phoenix feather wands are always the pickiest when it comes to potential owners, for the creature from which they are taken is one of the most independent and detached in the world. These wands are the hardest to tame and to personalise, and their allegiance is usually hard won.

Ash

The ash wand cleaves to its one true master and ought not to be passed on or gifted from the original owner, because it will lose power and skill. This tendency is extreme if the core is of unicorn. Old superstitions regarding wands rarely bear close examination, but I find that the old rhyme regarding rowan, chestnut, ash and hazel wands (rowan gossips, chestnut drones, ash is stubborn, hazel moans) contains a small nugget of truth. Those witches and wizards best suited to ash wands are not, in my experience, lightly swayed from their beliefs or purposes. However, the brash or over-confident witch or wizard, who often insists on trying wands of this prestigious wood, will be disappointed by its effects. The ideal owner may be stubborn, and will certainly be courageous, but never crass or arrogant.

So Am I not awesome, yet? ;)

To add more to my awesomeness, I was sorted into my dream house: Ravenclaw. ♥ I have always wanted to be a Ravenclaw. I never wne through a Slytherin/Gryffindor phase. It was always Ravenclaw since the beginning. And you can imagine my joy. I seriously jumped for joy because of this. Imagine it: I've been dreaming of becoming a Ravenclaw since I was 10 or 11 and now, I have proven myself worthy. My heart is happy :')

And that, my friends, is the highlight of my day/night.

Please stay safe everyone? The storm is really scary. :S

All Time Low Live in Manila

So, this was suppose to be a post last Thursday night but I was so damn tired last Thursday and I didn't even go online much last night since I had to study for the Chem exam which I think I failed because it's over-the-top difficult. :||

Last Thursday (September 22, 2011) will go down as one of the most important nights of my life, I swear it. The concert was simply put: fucking amazing and the epic-ness of it all still astounds me up to this moment. This has got to be one of the best nights of my life and I will remember it forever. Of course, every concert I have attended is one of the best nights of my life, mind you :))

I don't have pictures because I didn't bring a camera. I always don't bring cameras to shows though :)) Anyway, as said above, it was fucking amazing, okay? The show was just ugh-too beautiful to explain words. Every penny that was used to get to that show was worth it!

They seemed to love it too! I mean, they look like they genuinely enjoyed themselves. Plus, they said so themselves. "This has got to be the biggest show of our career" "One of the loudest crowds ever" "You guys are amazing" and whatnot. THE FEELING IS ABSOLUTELY MUTUAL YOU GUISE.

I was standing on a chair in the pit (yep that's how close I was) and I was jumping to every song and I was so scared of falling because the chairs were pretty unstable (or was that just me being paranoid) but I still jumped on ♥ I knew every lyrics to all their songs except that of Guts. I should learn it now :)) I wish they played Stella but it really doesn't matter because they had a great setlist nonetheless.

I can't even pick favorite parts and I can't watch videos of them playing here because I know I'll have extreme PCDs (PCD=Post Concert Depression). Well, one of my favorite parts is definitely the acoustic part of the show: this included, Therapy, Teenage Dream and Remembering Sunday. Well because Alex's speech before Therapy was heart breaking and the crowd was just amazing okay? The whole coliseum sang to everything. Eyes watery during Therapy and ACTUAL TEARS in Remembering Sunday okay? Everything was just beautiful and heart breaking at the same time.

Six Feet Under the Stars was also one of my favorites because it's the first time since they started this tour that they played it. It makes me feel special. Thank you to Sarah and her friends who sang it to them at the airport and they were forced to put it back to their setlist forever. Please play it forever :')

They seemed genuinely touched by the tenacity of the people that showed up (in both the signing and the actual show) Plus, Philippines have one of the most amazing crowds I dare say. WE ARE FUCKING AMAZING ♥

Except you know, rabid fans are rabid. Gaaah. There was pushing and pushing and gaaaah~ Kulang na lang magsabunutan at magsapakan kami para makarating sa harap eehh >.> Plus there were these really rude guys (the rudest in the history of all concerts :||) who pushed us so hard and even called us bitches. Well, fuck you @.@

I am so happy that it didn't ruin the show for us though. All Time Low's awesomeness overshadowed everything. :> One of the most fun and the best ever. This show is going down in history-and not just ours, in their career too :)

I still don't have my voice back and I don't regret a thing. Thank you and I love you All Time Low :)

This one is for the book :>

Tonight, Tonight

Hot Chelle Rae - Tonight Tonight found on Pop

I am seriously obsessing over this right now. :))) Super LSS mode plus I can't stop watching this video! My god.

Yes, that si Chord Overstreet and his brother, Nash Overstreet, is the guitarist for the band. He's the one with the pink hair and shit. :> I am seriously obsessing not only on this song but to the whole discography of Hot Chelle Rae. They're pretty good, okay? :)) TRY LISTENING TO THEM :>

Happy Birthday Mel! And my addiction to '80s movies right now

Well, it's not really Mel's birthday yet but she treated us last night at Racks as a somewhat birthday celebration. Again, I cannot post pictures until next year because the only person who brought a camera (ahem, Anna!) refuses to upload pictures for her 365 days project. :| :))) But whatever.

We ate at like 6 or 7:00. But our classes (Mel, Adge and mine) ended at 4:00. So we had to kill time around Robinsons. I saw Mathew Gray Gubler (a poster) on one of the shops there. And the oh so lame Bianca forgot what shop it was. Gaaaah. Anyway, we decided to eat at Cara Mia which was a bad bad bad decision.

Sooo we ate at Racks and unbelievably, I got full almost too quickly. :| Which is by the way, weird, because I eat a LOT. Seriously, I eat a LOT. And that is why eating at Cara Mia before dinner was such a bad idea. I still ate relatively a lot though. Not as much as I would have liked but I still ate a lot. :))

It was a wonderful night, simply put. I had an awesome time with my friends and we had lots of laughs (really a ton of laughs) and we got to make kwentuhan :))) I LOVED IT. :D

We didn't get to finish all the food because oh my God, there was A LOT of food. :))) Anyway, Mel's actual birthday is on the 18th. And I have a gift for her na! :))) Yaaay~ Although it's not finished yet, at least I can work on it. :))) But yeah, I can't tell what it is since she might stumble upon this. but I iz excited to give her the gift!

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As you can see on the title, I have recently found a hidden obsession fro '80s chick flicks. :)) Well, i don't really know if you can classify them into chick flicks but yeah. Stuff like The Breakfast Club or Say Anything or Dazed and Confused and shizz like that. You guys (whoever is reading this tho) should totally watch it! I'm currently onto Can't Buy Me Love and Grease. hihihi.

While I'm here watching old good movies, my brother is ou there listening to old good music. Queen, Aerosmith, Eric Clapton and the like.

Yes, I do think we are old souls. :)) We were probably born in the wrong era. Or were we? I don't really know. But right now, everything media seems so shallow and well, shitty? That's just me though, and my brother. We really don't know.

3AM and I am still awake

What am I still doing up anyway? Beats me, I just can't sleep so I decided to blog if that even helps. As you know, inspiration strikes me in the most indecent hours so maybe I can get something out of this. Maybe I can't sleep because I had an afternoon nap. Yeah, that would be it.

I'm also waiting for The Breakfast Club to finish downloading. Only 30 more minutes! :)) I shall watch it right after it has finished downloading. Maybe it will help me sleep. Or should I sleep now before my sister wakes up for school? Hmm. Decisions, decisions. But only 20 minutes left! I should wait for it already. hihihi.

I have been thinking why I have such an unproductive life. Hahaha. That sounds funny and conceited but yeah. I wish to be more out there-more social, more interesting, more PRODUCTIVE. But seriously, school is draining the life out of me. It's the truth!

So since this semester is soooo stressful (or toxic, as many of UP students would understand that better), I promise that next semester I will put myself out there and I will have more social activities and more extracurricular activities that I will still take time to think about.

By next sem, I should be able to write again and submit essays and articles somewhere to be published (yes, I can be quite ambitious) and I should be able to learn and master playing the drums. So my fingers are crossed and I am quite hopeful that I shall be productive (in areas other that academics) and that laziness won't take over me.

Oh, and I will start a literary thing again. Hihihi. I tried that once, but I failed finishing it. I will write short stories everyday for a year or whatnot but you get the point. Just short stories. But they should be nice short stories! Hahaha. Last time I tried, I only got to finish 16 stories. Two weeks. lol. That was a fail, obviously. I'll post some here, is that okay? :))

October 13, 2010

It has been gray for a while now- rainy, dull and empty. Nothing’s going to change; tomorrow’s another gray day. Maybe it’s better to feel sad than this empty. At least, there is some form of inexplicable beauty in sadness. But empty, empty is nothing-it is just nothing.

October 15, 2010

Bittersweet moments are almost always just bitter. Most of the time, we are all just afraid to let go of everything and so we make up little sweet moments that is of the slightest significance for us to hold on to.

That’s the truth- there are no bittersweet moments. Only bitterness with deliciously sugarcoated lies.

October 19, 2010

We’re young: we’re licensed to have fun-bend and break the rules. Drink all the alcohol you can, dance to all the songs your feet can take, party from night till dawn, fall in love as much as your heart desires and take as many pictures of these moments. Have fun while you still can.

We’re only young now and this too shall pass. The world won’t wait, darling.

October 27, 2010

It was barely a start and now it’s good-bye. Too sudden, too quick, too unexpected. Yesterday was an explosion of happiness; today-two broken hearts. All we have left are vague memories of glances with obscure meanings and smiles that made hearts beat faster. Fate cut us off before words were even spoken, before fingers even touched and before lips even met.

There wasn’t even time or space of a propergood-bye. Suddenly, you were just…gone.

November 12, 2010

People seem to think that tears can wash away our pain. We seem to think that it can take our sadness and our worries away with it. But, it doesn’t does it? It leaves an empty space at the pit of your stomach and a sinking feeling in your heart. The truth is that the moment you let yourself cry, you lose control of yourself. The moment you let yourself cry, you become entirely and irreversibly vulnerable.

Crying is not some form of release. It just fucks everything up and leaves you wallowing in self pity. No, crying doesn’t make you feel better. It makes you feel a lot worse.

November 17, 2010

You’re near enough to taste but way too far to reach. We’re always almost there but not quite. But almost is nothing but almost. You’re not mine and I’m not yours because we’re nothing but an almost. There’s nothing to hold on to and nothing to lose because what are we, but almosts? Time starts to rush in and you start to lose me and I start to lose you. But wait, how can that be?

You were never mine and I was never yours to lose.

See, those were my best works at that time :)) Not even close to great. I KNOW I CAN DO BETTER! Because there was a time I did better than any of those works. And I can do it again, even exceed it! Lezz do this :>

You're good at hooking up but you suck at love

I am obsessing over Anne Hathaway and Jake Gyllenhaal right now. I'm not even kidding. I have just watched over ten to fifteen videos revolving around them-interviews, fanvideos of their characters in Love and Other Drugs and to the real actors as well. Oh god, obsessing over other people's lives is not at all healthy in anyway possible. Gaaaah.

I have watched Love and Other Drugs ages ago and I have watched it numerous times because it's so beautiful-the story, the actors, everything! Anne and Jake had so much chemistry in there. I don't know why but midway through the night I thought 'hey, I'll look for some Love and Other Drugs fan videos' which jumped into Anne & Jake fanvideos which jumped into Anne and Jake interviews. Now, I'm here sitting and thinking why it took me so long to ship these two when I have loved Love and Other Drugs for so long. Boink.

I am serious. If you haven't seen Love and Other Drugs, you have been missing out, like seriously. It's absolutely beautiful and deep and gaaaah. Just watch it okay? I still watch it when I'm bored or shit and it never fails to inspire me ♥ It's original, it's funny, it has the right amount of drama and romance and humor to it. I cried the first time I watched it.

Besides the absolutely hilarious parts, my favorite scene in the movie is the end. :) It was absolutely heart breaking and the script was just uugggh. I still wish I can write something that heart wrenching. Anne and Jake were just breath taking and both so gorgeous in the film. I am a bit late promoting this film but reaaally! One of my favorite love stories :) Plus it all started the fuck buddies concept recently. It was waay before No Strings Attached and Friends with Benefits. hihihi.

So here are fan videos on Love and Other Drugs. I seriously enjoyed myself with a lot but these are the ones I have successfully tracked down. :)) Yaaaay, video spam! :D

Anywaaaaay, as I said, I also love Jake and Anne. I mean, I would love for them to be together in real life. Oh god, they have such good chemistry on and off screen. And their friendship is just so admirable! I am serious, I have watched a series of interviews and I will only put two up because I have spammed you guys with too many videos already :))) But yeah, they would be such a great couple. And even if they don't they have a greaaaaat friendship, which I absolutely love nonetheless. I just hope they make another film together. :D

Anne Hathaway is turning out to be my favorite actress, isn't she? Hahaha.

Title of the post is from You Suck at Love by Simple Plan. Check out their new album! :D

This is what I look like when I'm sick

Why yes, that is tissue! You guys won't believe how sick I feel I am. :(

Happy Birthday Mary and Other News

Today was evidently Mary's birthday (as stated above). Mel, Adge and myself bought her a P1000 gift card at Powerbooks since she loves to read and Royce chocolate since she also likes chocolates (well, duh?). HAHAHA. Anyway, we bought her cupcakes that spelled out Happy Birthday and we had a candle and all that.

She didn't know all this. Hihihi. We surprised her after class. ♥ Adge stalled in the classroom while I ran for dear life outside to light the candle and prepare the things with Mel. James wasn't able to surprise her with us but Adge really did a good job stalling (talk shit, hahaha). Thankfully, she liked it and she was happy about the surprise. Yaaaaay ♥ A semi successful attempt at a surprise. Happy 18th Birthday Mary! :D Unfortunately, no pictures since no one thought of bringing a camera :)))

Do I even have other news other than that? I really don't know since I'm making this up as I go. I back read my previous blog entries from other blogs and those were some long assed shit. hahaha. Where did I ever find the time or effort to write random and non-sense bullshit. I fascinate myself a little too much sometimes-in short, self-absorption.

After class, Mel, Adge and myself ate dinner at Ravioli. But before that, there was an intense amount of walking and walking and walking. My feet almost killed me. But back to Ravioli, the pasta was amaaazing. I seriously loved it. Well, I actually love a lot of food so I don't think that's even something new. We went to secret recipe afterwards for dessert. Really? Define bankruptcy. I cannot believe I'm saying this but the three of us should seriously cut back on our food trips. :))) This is too gluttonous.

Oh my God, I haven't watched One Day, up to now. What a loser. It's showing right now at Greenbelt and I have failed to watch it, still. Gaaaah~ I hope it shows until Monday, lool. :)) I have read and reread the book out of hopelessness and I have been honestly waiting for a pirated copy or somewhere to download (yes, shame on me, but i am seriously so desperate right now).

And because I don't have anything else to offer, I give you ze trailer.

Because I have nothing more than the trailer to watch over and over again ;___; I feel like I'm going to cry in this movie though. I mean even though I've already read it and I practically know what's going to happen, I feel like the movie is still going to make me cry. Anne Hathaway is always marvelous and Jim Sturgess looks amazing here as well. ♥ Gaaaaah. Please just let me watch One Day already, dear lord.

Aaaaand, because of that One Day frustration, I settled with watching Prom and The Art of Getting By. Both okaaaay, but I preferred the latter though. Although Prom was nice, it was seriously corny and well, cliche, per say? Plus, the dialogue was just so, blaaaah~ It sounds like something my fourteen-year-old self has written. Corny and unrealistic and cheezy and oh my god, just stop it. :))) The Art of Getting By was nice though. It was pretty original and well, more real. :)))

This has been on repeat the whole time I was typing this. HAHAHA. Eargasm on 30 Seconds to Mars.

PS: Notice how there is a number of hearts out there. loool. Too much is too much :))))

Frankie Bb

We went to Alabang today for my cousin't baptismal dinner. My baby cousin is so cute. I cannot post pictures because I have none yet but if I do get some, you will see how cute she truly is! For now, you have to trust me.

I wanted to carry her, but I didn't trust myself :\ I'm clumsy as it is, I'm not taking any chances with my baby cousin. Gaaah~ I just wanted to hug her, okay? Which I didn't get to do as well. HAHAHA.

Anyway, dinners with teh family is always entertaining. Good thing they offered food besides meat, so I got to eat a LOT. Thank God, for that, plus the food was absolutely delicious! I want to come back there right now and devour everything (except the meat, of course) I got to bond with my tita-cousin over there. We talked about TV shows and shit like that which is really awesome, I suppose.

Families ♥

And now, let me share with you my two latest LSSes. :)))

Partied the night away

Kind of just got home from the awesome party that ws ADHOC. Oh god, the smell of booze and smoke and party still lingers all around me. Everything was amazing-the music, the lights, everything. Gaaaaahh~

I am so glad I didn't let this pass. I'm also happy that I didn't get wasted because some of my friends did, in fact, get so wasted and drunk and etc.

I went to Mel's house to prepare and we went to ADHOC at 8:00 with Carlo, Mel's friend who I met before and Tim, Carlo's friend who we just met. Does that sound confusing to you? Anyway, we got there and we bought tickets and met up with Mel's other friends-Audrey and Jem. We also met Tammy and Batch who were Audrey's friends. Gaaaah. I can't even believe I remember their names. What is awesome.

The party started a little after nine. Just seeing the lights excited me and frankly, I felt a little dizzy, just with the lights. HAHAHA. It was cold inside. As in freezing cold but of course, if you're dancing the night away, that would be a good thing, yes?

Inside there were free flowing drinks. loool and we drank right away plus took pictures and shit. We met Mary, Mel's friend, and Joey, Carlo's friend. And we became this whole group of people partying. We sqeezed our way to get to the somewhat front of the vicinity and we danced the night away there.

It's said to be the biggest party in the metro. Well, I concur. AWESOME NIGHT WAS AWESOME :)

Inspiration, just come.

I want to write. I want to write beautifully. I know I have the potential, I know I can do something very amazing but I'm here stuck on an indefinite writer's block. I just want to write. I know I have the ability to string together words that it would seem they were flowing.

But right now, nothing is coming to me.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not being lazy because I'm reading the newspaper, I still take time to read a page or two of my current book and I still watch movies with amazing stories. I'm stumped. What has happened?

I want to write something real, something very touching and inspirational. One of those stories that can tug at your heart either from absolute bliss or bitter despair. But no, I can't even write a decent short literary entry now.

Every material I have come up lately are all flat-emotionless, fact driven and just oh so formal. I can't even feel something out of these. And that's just sad because I used to cry at my own stories. They used to be so beautiful (ahem, carrying my own bench here). Just every now and then there comes something decent. Le sigh. I used to write something amazing at a whim.

I should have kept all my literary success. They would be great reference now.